I got home from work on Friday, feeling like crap, but I managed to dust myself off, fix my hair, throw on some hot pink heels, and head out to Canteen for Ryan’s Vernissage. It ended up being a really fun opening, and his two pieces were great. Pictures would do them no justice, so you’ll just have to take my word for it. A holographic print and a gnarly video. He’s got a very distinct aesthetic, and it looks really good.
I didn’t stick around very long at Canteen, though, because I had to go home and pack. I almost fell into another somber mood when I started putting clothes in my bag… What to bring? Nothing fits anymore, so my wardrobe options are limited anyway. And then on top of it, all of my clothes are “work clothes” and totally inappropriate for a bike polo tournament. But I knew I’d end up feeling like shit wearing the unflattering boy cut bike polo t-shirts we have lying around. After trying on a couple of things, I managed to pack enough to tide me over – including the jeans I’d managed to pour myself into for the Canteen show!
Then I scrambled into my Slaughter Daughter shirt (roller derby is good for the soul), and felt instantly better. Ange was asleep on the couch, and I had some peaceful moments to myself before the 8 hour car ride to Philly.
The ride itself was better than I thought it would be. We crossed the border effortlessly, and fairly early on in the trip. I drove from about 2:30 to 5:30am, which was GREAT. Really. It was pitch black, the boys were asleep, and there was this thick fog spilling out over the road. It made for slightly slower driving, but I had the GPS on, and so I used that to anticipate turns and bends in the road. When Bryan took over for the last leg, I crawled into the back seat and slept for about an hour.
We got into Philly and headed straight for the courts. There was no one there when we arrived, so we went for breakfast and made some calls. The set up at the courts was awful – really narrow courts separated by hay bales (??) and boards that were… laughable. But no one was laughing. The whole tournament had been mired in gossip, animosity, disappointment and apprehension. And seeing the courts up close, in person, and watching the chaos unfold – well, it didn’t restore any faith into the shattered expectation of the participants.
But really, I didn’t allow myself to care. I didn’t offer any help. This wasn’t my bag. I’ve been that gofer at these kinds of tournaments. (At the 2008 NSPIs I missed the final game because I noticed that no one had bought any beer glasses for the keg at the afterparty. I had 18 minutes to get to the grocery store before it closed, and made it just in time. It was almost a huge fuck up, but no one noticed). So I just sat back, chatted with the other players, and basked under the hot Philly sun.
Despite the shitty conditions, and tensions from clashing personalities, I had a really good time at this tournament. I met tons of people, got to know a bunch more that I had only briefly met at the NSPIs, and watched some excellent polo. The Ottawa boys were in good shape on Saturday, winning 5 and losing 2 (heartbreakers, both of them).
Our Saturday night was pretty mellow, as we were beat from the long drive, the day of polo, and the hot sun weighing down on us with no cover in sight. We crashed early and slept well through the night.
Sunday had a nicer breeze and ended up a little overcast, which was great relief. The boys played well again, losing to RVA, which sent them down to the loser’s bracket. It was great, though, because with their backs against the wall, they played tons of games and won with impressive flurry.
Finally, they lost to Wisconsin A, and that was the end of polo for them that day. Angelo and I watched some great match ups, heckling and laughing and joking around with everyone else. Hanging out with the guys from Milawauke, Richmond, NYC, and Chicago is always way fun, and I laughed so hard, cheered so hard, partied so hard. It was really great.
But then the Finals came and the usual suspects were left to battle it out. The tournament ended on a weird goal, and it was sort of anti-climactic, and then we were once again faced with the incompetence of the organizer, and the awards ceremony was shit. Ran out of beer in the first 1/2 hour, and no one could hear the announcer. Plus, they lost the bracketing, so the teams had to sort out for themselves their ranking, and the MVP was chosen almost at random, which left a bad taste in the mouths of the other teams.
Finally went back to the hotel, partied a little there, and that was it. Spent Monday on the road, heading back home.
In the midst of the madness, I lost my voice, reconnected with Angelo, and had the funnest time. There was no room for sad introspection, self-doubt and comparisons to others. There was only time for laughs, for jokes, for letting things go.
Now why can’t I transfer that attitude to my day-to-day life back here?